Weigh in day...

First pic is 6 weeks ago next is today :) I joined a 6 week Facebook challenge where my goal was to exercise at least 5 x per week which I smashed :) and lose 12 pounds which I was 0.8 shy of! I'm ok with that- I worked hard! Couple less indulgences and I'd have been there but hind sight it's 20/20 and it sucks lol!

Today might be my last lunch run.... Even with my mace running in the hood is nerve wracking for sure! I WAS feeling confident and ok since I had my mace but today I changed my mind... I ran past these two very seedy individuals that stared and made me very uncomfortable....I think I could fight off one and spray his eyes out but two....mmm I doubt it.... I just don't want to be a statistic so I guess it'll b back to the treadmill at 5 am instead :) I feel like such a weenie saying that but I am a big chicken! On a different note about that run-WOW IM SO DONE WITH 100degree days! Dang was it hot n humid! I was red as a tomato!

Having spaghetti squash and rotel for supper so good :). Finally got some more Jay Robb's strawberry protein powder so I will have my banana split protein shake for dessert and I am so looking forward to it!

The kids both took their lunch the first time for Kylie and oh my..... First off Ty took a peanut butter sandwich with crust cut off, a cup thing of nutter butter cookies, a banana,& a little bag of pretzels.... What did he eat? The cup of nutter butters! That's it! Said I wasn't hungry mom!! Kylie took a bologna and cheese sandwich no crust, a little bowl of strawberries, a banana, a blueberry muffin and a water.... The strawberries "just came open" which translates to Kylie opened them to eat a couple and didn't close the bowl all the way. So her entire bag was full of squished strawberries as she did not mention it to anyone lol! She ate the sandwich and half the banana and the muffin.... Put the other half of the banana in the sandwich box mmmmmmGROSS! Lol it was mushed too and slimy gross! I think they'll just buy lunch hahaha

I stumbled upon this blog today-can't recall the name but she's popped into my mind today quite a bit. She's a runner too and her mother ran and was out training one day and passed away on the track! I feel so lucky to be healthy and feel like I have the fight to get where I want to be and do the things I want and need to do! My dad needs a heart transplant and I think of him a whole lot on runs. That post, you've prolly seen it on pinterest, that says I run because someday I might not be able to, I run for those who can't-that's me :) I'm slow but I'm doing it!

Sittin here watching undercover boss-I love the idea behind this show but it just seems so freaking scripted!

Hopefully will get to the farmers market tomorrow before they close! Can't wait to check out what they got! They have yoga! I would really like to do that but I bettin my kids would not let that happen- not peacefully anyway hahaha. I signed up for a virtual race for this weekend it's a 5miler so I gotta crank that out sometime! And I think I'll take the kids to the library. I need some motivation so I think I'll borrow some running books! Have a great and safe weekend! Until next time....

MicroCinfulApples

So I bought this big bag of apples at SAMs and they are not my kind of apples. I usually buy gala apples I like them kinda soft not break your teeth crunchy and so if course these new ones are break your teeth crunchy.... So I cut it up sat here and thought hmmmm cinnamon apples sound so good! We have a little oven thing here at work but I don't have a pan or foil so that was out. So I thought wonder if it'll work in the microwave..... So I thru them in my bowl sprinkled with granular Splenda and cinnamon mixed together and sprayed with no cal wanna be butter and microwaved it for 2.5 minutes yum!!!! So now I totally feel like I had apple pie for my pre lunch run fuel---so good! 4miles on my lunch agenda:)

My babies had great first days of school :) Kylie says she's gettin so grown up now lol (my words) sniff sniff...

I read a Facebook post by a teammate, on the relay, that has me a little worried. He was commenting on another teammates post about a 3 mile run in 30 minutes (wish i was at 10 minute miles) on an injured knee, saying that that's a good pace for a beginner or a seasoned runner and that hopefully all of our team can keep that pace...... Uhhhhhhh I'm struggling at 11 minute miles! I do think running is a lot of mental struggles not just physical and I'm
Trying really hard to get faster and tell myself i can instead of i cant but it sure felt deflating to read those words:(
The more I think about it the more it sort of irritates me really! Hope pray this doesn't turn into something I will regret doing because I'm really looking forward to it! I'm just going to put it out of my mind. We all open mouth insert foot hopefully he's not an arrogant ass like it sounded....;)

Turkey sausage red potato onion bell pepper skillet for supper :). And laundry is filling my evening- why oh why can't there be a laundry fairy?

Forgot the pics

From the riverside run sunday :) here they are...... That first one is the Jacobs ladder! That is one tuff ladder!

Meatless Monday

So yesterday,I realized at 9pm, that I had not eaten meat all day.... None! Showed on the scale this morning too! This was not on purpose I was just trying new veggies and new salad and just didn't have meat. This is a strange thing for me because for one ive read and fallen into carbs are BAD THEME and also because I have pushed protein protein protein since I had my surgery, because that's what they tell u to do so that u don't lose muscle mass as you lose your weight. Anyway I did not feel deprived I was actually quite satisfied at each meal yesterday. For breakfast I had my usu protein shake and a western English muffin sprayed with no cal "butter" topped with granular Splenda mixed with cinnamon and toasted in the oven YUM- reminds me of the cinnamon toast my
Mom used to make me when I was little:). For lunch spinach salad with strawberries and slivered almonds and lite raspberry vinagarette yum and a sandwich thin with baby bel sliced and toasted with grape tomato halves & spinach. Dinner spaghetti squash (first time to try) with spaghetti sauce and Parmesan so good and filling and another spinach almond strawberry salad. And a lighter version watergate salad from undressed skeleton in a ice. CReam cone so good. See.... No meat.... Crazy to me! Lol

This wonderful coworker of mine brought CHOCOLATE CHEESECAKE today.... I cut an entirely too huge a piece..... So I will eat half take half to mark and share the chocolate wealth. :) can't wait to taste it!

Tomorrow is the first day of school for my little darlings! So exciting! Ty is in 3rd grade and Kylie is starting kindergarten sniffff! Getting too old!

Saturday we had our first football game they played and cheered their little hearts out I was a proud mom!
Skipped my long run day because I didn't want to drag out of bed Saturday morning at 5 to do the 6 miles on the treadmill. So I did it Sunday with the plan to run by the river.... Kinda a shady area as in trees and as in not so safe sometimes but I've always wanted to run there so I took my handy dandy mace and headed out! Got out too late.... Life with a family lol I have decided that I will HAVE. To get out the door before anyone else opens their eyes so that I don't have hot ass runs! Started my run nearly noon- too freaking hot! And I felt it! First 2 miles were great. Then I could feel myself fizzling out. Walked 20 seconds here and there. I've got to get a hydration belt thingy because I left all my water in the car didn't want to carry it... It would have helped. Got to one point and saw some shady ass looking folks pacing around acting like they were caught so I turned around and went back the other direction. Ended up climbing "Jacobs ladder" which is an incredibly hard stairway straight up! It was a challenge but I did it :) after 6 miles! Went home changed did laundry threw the football with Ty watched a touch of tv- I love snapped lol don't them bitches know u can't get away with it?! .....And went back out for my other 4 miles after the 49ers pulled out a win- that makes a happy home ya know! These 4 miles rocked! I was tired but ran the entirety of it! Weather was nice- cool for Texas kinda overcast and much cooler than my noon run! Got it done woohoo! So that was supposed to be Saturdays training and Sunday was supposed to b a rest day so I contemplated taking Monday for a rest but didn't..... Ran 4 miles treadmill at 5 am it was a suckish run wasn't feelin it....slow.... Got it done tho! And thought ok I gotta step it up that's what the dang relay's gonna be like! Except without sleep in my bed lol! 38 days until
My relay by the way :) still can't wait! I know it'll be hard but I can do it I CAN I WILL! I MUST! Had couple too many people tell me I couldn't so WATCH ME SUCKAS! Don't people ever learn that if u tell me I can't do it I will have to show u up?!!

Well it's lunch time so I'm going to go have my spaghetti squash with rotel and Parmesan (already ate my dessert- that chocolate cheesecake was the best I've ever tasted!) hope y'all have a grrrrrreat day!

I did it!

I ran three consecutive miles under 12 minute mile paces... I think it was actually 4, but I walk to warm up and cool down so those miles per hour are not just running calculations but who's counting.....oh ME!! I am very excited because I have been working towards getting faster and wondering if I was just destined to b a 12 minute miler no matter what.....but Im not.... A CAN DO THIS! I AM Doing this.

Tomorrows training is 5 miles am 6 miles pm..... Whew wee I'm ready:) I think..... In the middle we have football game and maybe library or swim park... We'll see.

Weekly weigh in picture below as well.... Gained 0.4..... Meh I'm ok I think I been over compensating on my eats with the "hey I RAN today so I can eat this n that".....Not bad stuff just more stuff.... So no loss. Next week got u in my pocket u will go down! Trying to concentrate on snacking and keeping it to a minimum because looking at my fitness pal.... I snack way too much! Fruit mostly but still when snack sections adding up to over 350 calories it's time to nix the snacks! My worst time of day is right when I get home.... I just want to eat the house and everything crunchy I can find! Have u ever noticed that like all things crunchy are full of carbs! I ordered from nature box... Which I thought I might never get but it came... And man there's some little crackers in there arhat are so good and crunchy(oh I just thought of something they'd be a great substitute for croutons on a salad!) and like 35 calories and they're only 2 carbs or something really low! I was amazed! Can't wait til they make it where you can order what u like in the box! The almonds that came in the box are out of this world! Maui onion crunch almonds they are so good!

Off to run stairs and do my 100 pushups :) have a great weekend!

Hilly run

Did my run at lunch again today. Woohoo to gettin all gross at lunch time! Lol. Thank the big man for deodorant hahaha! Anyway went pretty well it's so crazy to me how runs go..... Or here's how mine goes.... I really don't want to do this.... Excuse number 1-1000 pop in to head..... Fight with self..... No just get it done..... No I really could do it later.... No u don't have time just do it.... Get dressed for it..... Still making excuses not to..... Walk out the door.... Still dreading it..... Walk to warm up a little.... Still want to turn back and go in.... Start running..... Get into music still not so into it and its kinda uncomfortable starting up..... Sore from yesterday...... Half mile DONE...... Musics jammin...... Feeling better starting to really sweat..... All down hill from there..... Peaks hard half mile from done..... Push thru..... It's like giving birth.....OH THANK YOU LORD IT'S DONE! And I'm so glad I did it! Runners high everything is lovely woohoo! Amaze myself once again that I really just did that!

Lookin at my stats.....My "pace" is all over the place! I don't know how to stay in that same pace place... I just go.... Still learning about all this runnin stuff but feeling good about it!

Did my 100 push ups yesterday fixin to get them done for today too:)

Eating is going way better today than it was yesterday! I felt like I might eat the house yesterday!

Finally got my nature box yesterday! I like crunchy stuff and there are some really good little oriental cracker snacks in there that are only 35 calories! I was amazed :)

Played soccer,at Ty's football practice, yesterday with Kylie..... Think it might be her sport she can really kick and master that ball.... Will sign her up after cheer is done :) first football game Saturday! Can't wait! Wish I understood the game a little more maybe I will after he plays a few seasons.... We'll see-mark has tried and tried to explain it to me but I guess I just don't get it! maybe just maybe it'll make the difference that Ty is PLAYING:)

See ya on the flip side unless something way too interesting happens between now and then cheers to running👍

Me again :)

I did it! And I'm so glad I did. I did pretty good if I say do myself to!

Training program.....scared

So today is track day (or aka speed work day) and this intimidates me for some reason. I guess it is because I am
Scared to push myself?.!?! I don't really know! But it scares me which pretty much sucks cuz it makes me not want to do it period. So I sit and try and make up my bajillion excuses... One of my things I say to myself is NO EXCUSES! Excuses are quite simply useless in progress! In my opinion anyway an excuse isn't gonna make it go away any of it.... The fat... the pounds ....the run..... Ok thanks fit reading I am going to do this run at lunch like I planned so I can be at football practice for my son.... NO EXCUSES! I need the speed I need this workout there is reason for it!

Dam

First off I DID MY 100 pushups yesterday.... Feeling them babies today :) hoping I can do real man pushups by the end of this 30 days! I also ran 8 miles yesterday....3.1 at 5am on the treadmill and 5 on the dam close to work. Right after work... Which I was unprepared for so I ran in my scrubs! Got some looks but oh well had the time and with two kidos you have to do it when you can,so I did! Heres me on the dam in my scrubs in the sprinkling rain... Sweatin it up! Planning on running at lunch today,but I thought ahead and brought running attire!

I feel so hungry lately it's all I can do not to eat! I'm eating good foods....just want to eat them all damn day! Doing this training for my relay I think is making me hungrier, but I think I give myself too much leeway there.... I am still trying to LOSE so saying well, I did run a lot today,so I can eat that too or go over on calories is self sabotaging- something I am very very good at! The peanut butter jar in the house was emptied the other night so that's good. I tend to sit and think about peanut butter n jelly until
I must have a half of a sandwich.... Which wouldn't be a big deal BUT it's after supper and after a protein shake.... Which makes it too much. So it's all gone and I won't buy more for a while because it's a big temptation for me.

That's all for now.... Thanks for reading!

Pushups

I have little arm strength so for the next 30 days I am going to do 100 push ups everyday:) I'll keep u posted

Boy I look like my mom on this pic lol

100 flights climbed

I really love this fitbit! It really gets you moving! Set a new record for myself today climbed 100 flights of stairs at work today whew! Today is a cross training day in the training schedule so I will do an hour later or elliptical after football practice! Training has been going exceptionally well which I am extremely proud of! I ran 9 miles Saturday on the treadmill. In between jumping off due needing to referee my children! I think I have already gotten my paybacks! Saturday was my 10 year wedding anniversary. My husband had to work, so it was a good day to run 9 miles so that I could splurge a touch at dinner. We went to cotton patch..... Kids n all.... Very romantic I must say.... Ha ha! If only I'd brought candles because it was storming and the lights in the restaurant went out right when we got our food! So my son did not eat his food because he could not see it lol! I had meatloaf and green beans and broc n rice casserole it was delicious!

Here's my last Friday weigh in! Trying to get under 150 that was my ultimate goal going into this and this is the closest I've gotten..... So exciting! I WANT that under 150 by my relay race time oct 5th..... Trying hard so I think I'll smash it.... I hope :) whelp it's elliptical time see y'all next time :) thanks for reading

FOOD POLICE

    Seems like when people find out you've had gastric bypass surgery they instantly think they should probably do their duty to watch what you eat for you! LOL! Thanks a bunch but I got it,   now,
  finally! lol maybe not 100% of the time, but mostly I'm good!  Sometimes im not so good on the food Richter scale but its ok! I AM OK if i eat something not so great- I will likely not blow up instantly to 273! It would most likely take a lot of wrong choices for that to happen and so I try not to make those choices very often...... Get my drift? No? ok let me tell ya flat out then.... please don't notice,comment, mumble under your breath, wide eye, eye brow raise my food choices... you pick your food, nose, and butt and I will pick mine KKKAAYYY?? k :) If only I could tell some people this it'd be so cool! lol I mostly just laugh it off but its sure hard sometimes.

Went to visit with one of my very most favoritest family members last weekend... my Granny! I love her and I just love going to the town she lives in.  Wonderful memories going there all my life.  We go feed the ducks at the river, let the kids swim, take her to walmart, visit, take her out to eat, she is in a nursing home so outings are great fun. She is such an awesome lady!
  On our way home(bout a 3 1/2 hour drive) we stopped by a roadside farmers market.... mmmm.... you should have smelled this place!! Fresh baked zucchini bread! It was so good I cant even tell you! So I most likely could have used policing this particular day because not counting the 2 pieces i took to my mom and step dad I ate the entire loaf when we got home!! WHAAA! Yes I confess I did(but it had zucchini in it tho!) and it was good and I got right back on track.  i am still not 273 whew! they also had homemade ice cream! peach! Kylie said she must have some, she is just like me!!  but then she changed her mind and gave it to me! it was so good too!!! I also got little tomatoes, zucchini, squash, red potatoes and a red onion mmmmm see i bought some healthy stuff too lol!

Met one of my teammates for the capital to coast relay yesterday after work for a run and the dam here in town.  It was an awesome run! The dam is about 2.5 miles across. We are going to have so much fun on this race I seriously cannot wait! We have 12 people now too which is so elating! I came to find out some teams did not finish the race last year.... scared me a little! ok a lot!  I hope we finish! I want to finish! I think I may be pissed if we don't and I don't want to disappoint myself!  I have been giving everything to the training and I want to do well!  not first or anything.. but finishing for sure! The team doesn't seem like they'd give up tho which is great!  Stephanie was great to talk to! I felt very accomplished after our 100 + degree run across the dam! and hot and stankyyy- but thats how runners role....lol

So I'm loving this fit bit! So challenging! if your competitive in any since of the word this little baby will keep you moving... unless your blogging... which i guess I could walk in place as i type... shit no I cant I cant type period lol!! excuse My poor typing skills please.  Anyho fitbit rocks makes you want to beat yesterdays steps and stairs climbed and calories burned too! well worth the cash!(disclaimer- cuz heck everything needs a disclaimer right- if you buy it and don't like it sorry bout that but.... oh hell i forgot what i was gonna say)

ok i dunno anything else I guess......see ya later gater

Friday fitday

Ran a great 5 miles this morning on the treadmill! Only walked at each mile to drink some water for about 10 seconds! I am sticking to my training plan for the capital to coast relay and I'm
So excited to do it! Checked my email and I'm
On a TEAM now too! It's a great day! I hope and pray this is the awesome experience that I hope for it to be!

Going to see granny this weekend:) love going there seeing her and going to feed the ducks making family memories with the kids!

So ready for the weekend 7 miles tomorrow rest day Sunday! Down 3.6 pounds since last Friday yeah! It works when u do what needs to be done:)

Have a productive and restful weekend if that makes any since at All:)

On the right track..... Just don't derail!!

I've been sticking to my plan! I'm extremely excited about it. I've run the mileage my training plan says to run for the relay and food/calories have been on point.... Even below couple times! That never happens with me because 1 I don't have to b hungry to eat something I'm working on 2 if I "earn" some extra calories I'm
Spending them babies lol I've never really been much of a saver.... Something else to work on! Helping me to reach these goals is this handy dandy gadget I got its a Fitbit. Basicly a pedometer on steroids:) it tells you your steps, stairs in flights climbed, calories burned(which is what is on this pic at 4:28 I've burned 1682 calories already done 26 flights of stairs and ran 2 miles walked 1.5) oh and total mileage for your steps. You sync it and it has all these graphs ect to show you your activity level through out the day. It also tracks how well you sleep. Very handy and easy and last but not least MOTIVATING! Those 26 flights of stairs would not have crossed my mind without this!

I had a patient today tell me I was tiny! Lol I dunno it just strikes me as funny to hear someone refer to ME as tiny. I still have a 272 pound mindset... I still think I need more room to maneuver than I do. I buy bigger clothes than I need. I hope at some point I will KNOW I'm smaller. It's very strange to still see a fat person in the mirror. I don't know why I should be seeing my new and improved self by now it seems like but I guess I just focus on the flaws, which everyone has I guess. We are our worst critic that is for sure!

Ran 2 miles this morning running another 2 this evening. On the dinner menu: calzone with turkey sausage onion yellow and green bell peppers and little mozzarella wrap up in refrigerated pizza crust(I got the whole grain artesian to try this time) bake til golden YUMMILICIOUS!!

Ty had his first full pad helmet mouth gaurd tackle football practice yesterday evening! So proud of him he tackled like a champ! Kylie will be cheering for his team. Cannot wait its so exciting and Ty is super excited he puts on those pads and helmet constantly I love when they get passionate about something. Here he is dressed out!

Have a great evening and get movin!

relay race dun dun dun....

So, I have decided to copy off of Katie from Runs for cookies blog and run in a relay race. Its motivation like nothin else to know your a part of a team and you better train and you better try HARD! So I started searching and found one! I'm so excited about it! I'm trying to recruit a great friend Leslie, we shall see:) The race is called capital to coast. It starts in Austin and goes down to Corpus Christi. The only thing that makes me apprehensive is that these runners are faster than my 12 minute pace so I must step it up.  I guess one of them could be as slow as I am and the others just made up for their time but I don't want that to be me, so I will train hard and do this like a pro! Ever done a relay? DO share with me your experience?

In other news down 3.4 pounds since last Friday which is always good.  Moving closer still to that 150! 158.2 to be exact- in the 150's hmm  lowest I've been since surgery! and since prolly 3rd grade....

I really need to get a grip on feeding the rest of my family crap. My kids eat too much fast food. Its just because its convenient but I have got to change this its not healthy or good for them and I'm supposed to be showing them how to eat good food and be healthy and feeding them french fries is not doing that at all! Mark wants to eat better but doesn't like fruit and not many vegetables either so it makes it a little hard to tell him what to have. He has a little bit of gut he wants to get rid of, but has never had to or had the desire to eat healthy so he doesn't really have any idea what is healthy and whats not. You know like those people that think salad, ANY salad, is good for you even slathered in ranch so thick you could choke or covered in cheese and croutons? So, it made me kinda irritated when he said well I'm trying to watch what I eat but you haven't told me what I can/should eat- so he just hadn't eaten much of anything for like 2 days! seriously?  I started thinking you know how skinny I should be with all the damn diet KNOWLEDGE I have acquired in my 36 years of diets?!?! pretty damn skinny! So I guess I need to share my knowledge with him but for a split second I thought GFGI as my brother says lol...... Go Fucking Google IT! bahahahahahah yea I'm a little mean on occasion. Im sure when he tries he'll lose that 10 pound in like 2 days!  

So someone comment dang lemme know your reading lol have a great and healthy weekend!

binge eating

I have had gastric bypass surgery, so that should have fixed all my problems, right? Since I took the "easy" way out? NO!! Its not easy I still struggle, I still fight tooth and nail to keep this bastard weight off everyday! Today I have given in to my binge style which I hate!  I bought a package of dark mint girredeli chocolates with the intent of control.... Which I have done well with I have had one in 4 days that is huge for me! But today Im bord, stress over usual stresses and so they are calling my name from the drawer Liiiiisssssaaaaa......Liiiisssssaaaaaa....Lisaaaaaaaaaaa.... do you hear it too or is it just me?  Anyway the little bastards have unwrapped themselves and are now in my stomach..... at least 6-7 of them I think... I have "one mored" my way to that many.  Now I feel ridiculous and yuck!  I got up at 6 am and ran for 38 minutes and just screwed it all up by eating candy because I let my fuck it mantra take over! Ive got to get a grip. I wish I knew why it would even cross my mind to eat that much candy.  I have always pushed it to the limit in everything I eat to excess that is how I got to 272 pounds at my highest.  I drank to total ridiculousness. Seriously I give everything my ALL! Eat til your miserable and get shitfaced where you cant walk and make the worst possible decisions ever! Got the alchol mostly under control now if I could control my food itd be grand! I want so badly to get to 150(or below) but I constantly get in my own way! Ive lost a few more pounds so I guess im getting scared that I might actually reach my Goal? That just makes no since! I weigh myself constantly but was out of a scale for a couple weeks and actually lost weight because I think I give myself the green light on more food if I weigh a couple pounds less instead of thinking ok good I go eat like Ive never eaten before like I unconciously trying to sabotage myself...I dunno I know logically that doesnt make a drop of since but I do it im just putting it here so I can read it later and maybe try to understand it.

if it tastes good spit it out

So I read the other day about chia seeds, so I went n got some.  They are little black seeds. I put them in my taco casserole for lunch the day I bought them, because the article said they don't really alter taste they do expand and so makes you feel fuller. I was a little apprehensive to put them in in case I wasn't impressed since I used my lunch time to go get them. But much to my surprise they didn't taste funny and weren't crunchy in my food like I was afraid they would be. and they do help you feel fuller. Or they did me anyway.  They have alot of protein and fiber so plus and plus.... I'm sold.  Later that evening I put them in my protein shake. The article said they would thicken a shake. I guess it did thicken it but I did notice a taste I didn't care for has to be the seeds because it was the only difference in the shake. So in food its fine in shake blach! Only aversion is it kinda looks like little black bugs in my oatmeal... not so appetising! Any who that got me thinking why cant  these healthy "super foods" look more I dunno YUMMY?!?!? lol  

I have to pat myself on the back here...I have gotten up and run a 5 k on my tready most days of the week for 2 weeks now!!  It really feels good to get workouts knocked out before anyones even up! Miss bootcamp soreness tho maybe I will go tonight.

midnight 5k friday night Hopefully I will make it staying up that late haha