13 in 2013 challenge

I have lost my mind and decided to join this challenge. I will run 13 races in 2013.10k races to be more precise! I like that distance:) ill keep ya posted join me if you want.....girls gone sporty dot com:)

Out of my funk

I'm getting my mojo back I guess! My work schedules rotate and it messes me all up. Because one week I work 8-5 with an hour lunch so I run that hour then the other two weeks In the rotation I work 7-330 with 30 min lunch and there's no running there just a 15 min walk so that I can eat too.... I just feel so guilty taking time to work out. Which my kids contribute to....mom please don't go today....come throw the football with me.....do you have to do that all the time?.....can I have something to eat?.....all completely reasonable requests and I end up with the ill do extra tomorrow syndrome. So this is the week I get to run at lunch and don't feel like I'm cheating anyone out of time-I usually do really well on this week:).

Last week however was not it was an early week and my kids wanted to go down to friends houses and play. They are too young to go alone so I went....every.....day.....and ran up and down the street they were on.....boringgggg...but I got in my steps but my eating was crazzzzyyyy! I am a cracker whore! I love crackers! Why? I have no idea but I do any kind of cracker is doomed in my house they will be devoured! And they add up quick! They are gone and won't be back!

Goals for December
•drink my water! (I have not been doing this and it shows in my eating. If I don't drink I crave everything under the sun!)

•get 20000 steps on my fitbit daily(this weekend will be a challenge in that because I will be driving my dad from
Florida to Texas -can u say griswalds lol)

•stay out of the junk! Fix my lunches as usual. Eat salad when I feel munchy. (I'm
Always wanting to be in the kitchen right when I get home munching on something so I think I will start having a small salad straight away when I get home maybe that'll help:)

I think I'm going to do the miracle match half marathon in January. Everytime I do one my knee hurts tho for weeks but I've come to the realization that its just part of the recovery. Have started my training.

Then in march I have another relay in Texas with my team and then one from New Orleans to Pensacola!!! Can't wait like a kid waiting for Christmas! If you haven't tried a relay like this I highly recommend! The comraderee (yea sorry if thats misspelled its not my strong suit) among runners just plain rocks!

Have a great day y'all!

My Shadow

Running the other day I couldn't help but notice how shapely and small I look or well my shadow looks. I still think I'm bigger than I am and I'm not sure how to grasp
It and heck it's been over 3 years! Maybe it'll sink in at some point:), but looking at my shadow made me smile.

I say things to people that don't know me and I get the reaction that you'd give that size two girl bitching about her weight while your sittin at size 22! It's a crazy thing to realize they are saying to themselves "oh shut up already!" Lol so I feel that obligation to explain that I used to be much larger than I am now- always to their amazement! You just never know where someone's been or what they've been thru.

I've been listening to the half size me podcasts while I run and I love them! She has touched on some things that totally resonate with me!

One that I listened to the other day was talking about toxic relationships and said this quote which I love and think is so true! "Your true friends will love and support you no matter how it affects THEM" I am trying to clean my toxic clock :) just can't/won't/don't need to waste another minute on these people.

Highly recommend this podcast!

Doing a one mile challenge per day (at least) now until jan1 (and beyond I hope) join me :)

We got a real tree this year and I'm so excited to decorate for Christmas! It's so fun for the kids.

My dads doing pretty well getting stronger in the rehab facility he's in. Thank you for the prayers they're working!

Have a great rest of the afternoon :) happy Sunday!

Blogging

I'm so fickle on this blogging thing....sorry. I always THINK of things to write but the get busy or forget what I was going to write about.

Yesterday I ran just over 5 miles(I don't like my mileage to be odd numbers) and then rushed to the y for spin class. Made it just in time! I was listening to the instructor and another member of the class talk about the lack of coverage for them when they need off ect and I think I may take the class to become a spin instructor:) I'm super excited about this!
Yesterday I stayed so busy with house work ect that I didn't eat much, strange for me but it showed on the scale this morning :)

I love this time if year! Can't wait for Thursday :) have a wonderful thanksgiving :)

Amp???

Someone enlighten me as to what amp
Means in the blog title? Thank you in advance;)

Wowweeee

I just made it all the way home without eating one fry from my family's food! (Yes I know I should not be feeding them this crappy food and I don't have an excuse or any justification-they asked I said ok.) but I didn't eat one which is extremely odd for me!!!! :))))

Squash

I'm so glad I've finally tried squash! This is butternut squash soup and I must say yummmmmm and like 180
Calories! WOWWIEEE! Lol I love spaghetti squash as well makes for some wonderful low cal lunches for the week!

Loving the YMCA classes for some workout inspiration :) and variation! I did the body shaping class today and oh man the burn.... I should be nice and sore:)

I have decided I don't really think weight watchers is the plan for me but before I nail down that decision I think I'll try the simply filling plan first. Have y'all tried it or do u just do points plus?

10 k on Saturday was a killer hill route! Time was one hour 11mimutes :) 11:30 pace going to try to work on some speed. Wasn't last but I need to push myself outside my comfy box. I realized while I was running this race that I plain don't push myself. I know this by the talk test-I was singing on my race- i shouldn't be able to sing while racing! So that's my goal to push it. And speaking of pushing it I wire these zebra compression socks at the race and at that last hill (1/4 mile from finish but it was steep) this girl was standing there with a bullhorn saying "no no no girl with the cool socks you may not walk up this hill sprint it in!!! Go go go!!" It was just the encouragement I needed and I sprinted it in :) the spectators just don't know how great they are!

Struggling

Whoa is me.... Ok I'm done :) this weight struggle really stinks sometimes! Ok a lot if the time!

I just feel like someone else takes over and that bitch says "screw it" "eat it" WAY too much! I hate it!

I hate that I do this stupid cycle constantly! Insanity - you've all read the definition on Pinterest and Facebook, I'm sure, in those funny card type pics that make us all laugh- doing the same damn thing over and over and expecting a different result. That's me I N S A N E!

I work my ass off working out only to out eat all the calories I've burned! Whine whine whine! Ugggg. Sorry for the whine just truly struggling right now. Sucks! But I will keep moving, keep trying, keep trying to move to a more positive, happy me!

Thanks for reading:)

Wednesday weigh in.....

So Friday when I signed up for weight watchers I was at 154:(. That sucks but I'm
Not giving up.... I won't sit here and make excuses. I ate too much along with sitting on my ass with my sore knee...I walked but I'm used to running so I think I got this welp I might as well eat, I can't exercise which is THE STUPIDEST attitude to get and I know it but hey I didn't get up there in weight doing the smartest things.

Ice and Ktape are helping this knee woohoo!! It just plain sucks when u get to where you CAN run and u WANT to run and even ENJOY it, but u can't cuz ur knee hurts! It's an ahhhh today that I feel like I can run! So ready! I've brought my clothes to run on my lunch everyday this week but haven't been out yet! Think ill be good to go this evening so ready!

In other news I have decided I want to do a triathlon. No idea where to start but I'm fixing to find out ;) I'm not a strong swimmer or even a swimmer but I was told I can backstroke, doggie paddle anything that'll get me there in the water just not drown so I'm gonna give it a triiii lol yea I'm a dork:). Have to look up how long I have to get my doggie paddle down before the triathlon here...and find a bike I think they might laugh at me if I do it on my beach cruiser type bike lol! If u know anything about this or have any tips I'm all ears ;)

Going to join the y here so I can train in the pool and try out some yoga and other Classes. Haven't done a yoga class before. I like to burn calories lots of them and looking up the calorie burn for a yoga class makes me think nah but I'm gonna try it anyway...... I Need stress relief.

Hope you are having a great day. Keep smiling and your attitude bright and your day will follow:). Toodles

Knee pain a real pain in the a$$!

So my right knee has been hurting since that last half marathon...... And it flat out sucks!!! I ran friday had little twinges here and there prolly shoulda waited.....I ran Sunday focused on running on my forefoot no pain yeah happy dance..... Monday morning ummm ouch right out of bed!! Can't run can't walk without feeling it and it bites! To say the least! I just want to run. Praying it gets better soon. Have an awesome upcoming race.... San Antonio half marathon relay:). Running it with a relay teammate from the capital to coast! It's a rock n roll marathon race and I've always wanted to do one so if my dang knee will please cooperate I will be so thankful!

I joined weight watchers online to try it out. It's going ok. (My mother lost about 80 pounds on weight watchers and I've been on it several times in my life but didn't try, didn't DO IT- so guess what it didn't work). Weigh in on Wednesdays and will be posting my weigh ins to be accountable. I need some accountability:). So how did you my two followers get followers? Just curious:) I appreciate both of your support and kind words:). If you know about weight watchers I was wondering if u usually used up your weekly points that night before you weighed in or if you just let them go? I have 20 activity points left but I weigh in in the morning so I dunno bout using them right now. I really really want to get to 145 and I just keep standing in my own way with my ah screw it I want a cookie attitude. I've tracked every bite this week. I don't foresee a loss tomorrow just because I just started Friday and not running is not helping my confidence. I've still been moving and trying to get something burned but it just isn't running....that might not make since but it does in my head at this moment lol

My daughter text me this picture from my sons phone yesterday and I was shocked! This was almost 6 months after I had my gastric bypass and I thought I looked cute but yuck my hair don't look good like that and I look so fluffy. Our own worst critics much? Lol yes. I. Am.

My handsome :). He was picked by his class for coronation. He's the duke of his class so proud :)

Angel pie at the festival this past weekend :)

Football/cheer seasons over and will be missed. It was so good to see my son so excited about something:)

Hope y'all are having a fantabulous week:) Thank you for reading I really appreciate it!!!!!

Me and my daddy :)

He took me over to the coolest running spot around here and sat n watched me run! He's cool like that! We been keeping each other entertained! This area is beautiful!lemme share a few more pics.....this first one is a gym I thought was so cool it had a balcony with some equipment outside right by the beach where you could do your cardio and watch the waves!
The blues place Lou's blues those poles were so cool:)

Those birds were dying for some fries and I thought dogs begged! They were talkin to me ..... Hey where the hells the food? They don't do fruit I was eating an orange..... Starve then lol

That was a bridge on the run path whew is all I can say there lol

Signed up for a half on Saturday but my dads not feeling great and might be headed back to the hospital so well see..... Had labs yesterday. Prayers appreciated :) thanks for reading have a fantabulous day!

Is a half marathon ever REALLY half marathon?

Ran the beachside half marathon today in vero beach Florida :) it was awesome!! Here's some pics....first bridge we ran over then I was on the second bridge taking a pic of the first one :) view was beautiful!

Race was awesome I felt great the whole time;) rt knee pain started about mile 8 and its sore but other wise I feel great and I'm so happy I pr'd beat my last time Today 2:31:52. Last 2:40:5? This race course was great-now water after it tho I've never been to a race with no water......

And I was noticin I've run 4 half marathons and none have actually been 13.1 miles lol I guess it's hard to plan out a course?.!?! Lol oh well extra calories burned :)

Capital to coast

Last two legs :). Feels so good to have accomplished this!! team fun photos:) this has been one of the most challenging awesome fun experiences I have don't in my life! Almost to the finish line! Where there's a beer awaiting me! And an awesome medal!

First leg capital to coast

Pictures worth a thousand words! And this one is worth more than that for me!!! I ran a ten minute mile!!!! I'm patting myself on the back so excuse me for doing so..... I really rocked this first leg of my run!!! So exciting! Some teammates are the best some I've decided I could drive the van away and leave them where they stand but I'm letting stuff roll cuz nuthin and no one is going to ruin this experience for me I won't let them :)

Sept mileage mile high club

I just tallied up my mileage for September and my oh my I ran one hundred and seven point seventeen miles the month of September! 107.17..... Hmmm wow that's a buncha sweat! :). I am really excited about that number! Never ever thought I'd do this runner goal thing!

I've wanted to be a runner since high school I guess. We moved back to Texas to a tiny school and my first friend I made was on the track team so she asked me to join up with her on athletics. ( I'm talking the school was so small all 12 grades on one campus. Everyone had either gym (where they did nothing) or athletics(where u actually got some exercise and I was always trying to lose weight so...). So I asked and they said sure I basically was on the track team but never went to a meet or had an actual event I trained for.... Looking back I'm not exactly sure why not, but I lifted weights and ran/walked with them (slowest one as per all thru school). I just didn't want it bad enuf then is what I'm realizing today.

(Edited to add that the girl who got me to go into athletics quit because she found out she was pregnant! A week after I transferred over lol kinda funny how things work out:)
Tomorrow I set out to run 223 miles with 12 strangers.... Hope that goes ok;) I've trained hard so it should:)

Then I'm off to see my dad:)

Countdown baby!!!

Can't covey the excitement I feel about my upcoming race..... In 4days I will be running 223 miles with my team from Austin Texas to Corpus Christi Texas! Cannot wait! I'm so ready and so proud of all if the dedication and hard work I have put into training for this race! The fact that others will be counting on me has really pushed me in an awesome direction. It has made me realize that I can do this, I can be a runner, I CAN get faster, I can go that extra mile:) is it Friday yet!

I am running my relay and then will hop on a plane and go see my dad in Florida! He's not in good shape health wise-although he is doing better- thank you for all prayers- they WORK! :)

Then the next Saturday I will run a half marathon in Florida! It's by the beach and very scenic according to the site can't wait!!! Goal to beat my last half time of 2hours 40minutes 43seconds~feeling really confident I can beat it:).

I think It may be one of those vacations where u need a vacation after vacation lol:)

On the weight loss front.... I feel a lot like my bulldog in this picture..... Lol I'm so hungry!!!! I ate one thing totally off plan and it snowballed for about 6 days now! I'm back on track today thank goodness! Lots of stresses past couple weeks and I totally caved! But yesterday I did my Sunday thang and cooked up some 15 bean soup for lunches for the week and cut up my fruit for the week which makes a huge difference in staying on plan! it looks like 150 will not be here by Friday but you get what u put in i have put way too much in - MY MOUTH!
One hundred forty five
I will arrive at you on my scale at some point in life! Right now starting this minute forward I will make better choices and get there! I have got to get out of my own way and stop this self sabotaging. If I can do anything.... I can lose another few pounds.

Can't wait to update about these races thanks for reading:)

A whole week of no meat...

And I'm still alive lol! AND I've lost 2.5 pounds! Spaghetti squash is the bomb:) that was totally random, but it is! (so filling too)

I feel pretty blah today and I really don't want to run. Hate when I feel like this. My right knee is still twinging with occasional pain- trying to baby it. I've got to do this race!

In personal news my dad is not in good Heath and I am stressing about it big time. Which is a portion of why I'm feeling blah. He is diabetic and has heart problems- major heart problems- needs a transplant. I'm worried out of my mind. He's thousands of miles away and closer to my brothers, who are taking care of him but he's my daddy! He's too young to be in this bad of health. He's not sounding like himself on the phone and that's all I have to go on! You know men are all nonchalant like meh he's alright, but I don't think so! (His condition usually fuels my running but today right this second I just feel yuck/blah/I don't wanna!). Prayers appreciated :)

Feel overwhelmed and out of control which I don't deal well with and generally makes me want to eat and eat and eat some more. It's so hard to break the patterns in your life! Seems hereditary. Hope my kids don't follow my lead and I continue on this healthy path I've found (with a little help)

Off to football practice:). C y'all

Boooo

Boo my knees flaring up again :(. Ran 9 miles this morning on the treadmill had a bad step and mmmmm no good! Had another 4 miles planned for afternoon so I dropped Ty off at a birthday party and Kylie at her aunts and was gonna run in this really pretty neighborhood close to the birthday party. Got out did my 5 mins walking started to run And my knee said mmm nope! So I went to the gym thinking ok ill go try the treadmill -really wanted to do that 4 miles! Treadmill wasn't better so I did the elliptical which I could still feel the twinge. Ice n rest will b on my to do list for the next couple days....boo!

Dinner pic yum:)

How does one person feel so fat and so fit all it one?!?

3 years and 5 months ago (seems like yesterday and 30 years ago) I never thought I could've RUN..... A mile much less the 9 I just finished or the three half marathons I've done! It's crazy how little credit I give myself. I look in the mirror and still see the chunkster I was. I hope I exude more confidence than I feel. Wouldn't it be nice (and scary lol) to have a camera follow u around so u can SEE how u act and what your body language is telling people? I'd also like it to film my running lol so I'll know if I run crazy or not! Lol like the episode of friends where phoebe runs like a little out of control kid! It's was a funny one I'd u missed it:) 4 more miles later.... To the library now cheap and FUN I HOPE THE KIDS BEHAVE :) for some reason I see Kylie hollering on there.... I'll keep u posted have a great and healthy weekend!

Challenges

I have taken on a challenge that I wanted to share I will be vegetarian for the next 4 weeks! I'm
A little apprehensive but I'll try anything. Should b interesting. Just contemplating it last night made me ravenous for the steak the rest of the family was having. I may have one day a week I have meat but I haven't decided yet. This was a challenge by sexymotherrunner.blogspot.com. She is going all out vegan but I'm
Not sure I want to jump all the way in so I'm going to get my feet wet first.
And I am going to give up peanut butter until my relay race on October 5th. Oh my I totally have to do it now! Ahhhh what will I do with out my peanut butter! Lol I'll live and I might even drop these last few pounds!

So yesterday at lunch I ran an awesome 5 miles that felt so good and I really pushed my pace I was so proud and excited that I'm gettin out of 12 min miles FINALLY! So today I thought hmmm can I do it again? Set out for 4 miles today. It was hotter today for sure but I did it! Here's my splits for yesterday (it says 4.68 or some shit I did more than 5 miles but paused my runkeeper some damn how grrr hate that) and for today. Very proud of these numbers! I'm getting there! I hope/pray/dream that I can keep under 11 min miles on this race with 3 1/2 weeks to go I should b good to go :) so exciting!
Lots to think on whole I run lately- my dad is in the hospital again. He has a series of health issues including diabetes, congestive heart failure- needs a heart transplant- has a pacemaker and I has some kidney damage from diuretics trying to get the fluid off from the chf it's a vicious cycle. Hopefully they can get him feeling better. Soon! Prayers appreciated!

Have a great evening thanks for reading:)

My Awesome running weekend

Saturday I had 7 miles am and 5 miles pm
On the training schedule... I got up before Mark went off to work to get it done. I've been putting it off til Sunday's but I didn't want to last Saturday because I was working the night shift at the hospital on Sunday night and knew it'd b too much with laundry and life with 2 kidos and 49ers football, which meant gettin on up before I wanted to on Saturday morning~ ah the life of a runner:) more on this in a bit! Made some baked chocolate oatmeal the night before so i got up and threw it in the oven while I dressed and brushed my teeth(who can run with poo breath lol) it was so good but I could only eat half, I put chia seeds in it and man was it filling so, I saved the other half for post run it was perfect thing to do. All of this took too long and I didn't get out the door til 620 had to be back @705 so mark could leave for work. I was trucking along knowing I couldn't finish 7 miles I thought I'll do what I can and do the rest on the treadmill so I got 4 done and headed in to do the rest watching biggest loser on Netflix. That's show always inspires me. The weather was wonderful by the way Texas cold front woohoo ONLY got up to 90 lol but hey I will take it!

Then I showered and the kids and I went to run some errands. Football/cheer pictures were on our agenda for 3 so we were going to go see Madagascar at the dollar move but then I got a text that no the picture people would b leaving at 1230 (it was 1140) so I told the kids hmm-well I guess we won't get pics this year and Ty was like no mom I want that picture we can make it! So we ran home they got dressed in all their stuff and we rushed over to the field.... Where they were taking down the tent and backdrops!!! So aggravating! The lady was rude on top of that but anyway I'll still get their pics they picture ppl
Are coming back for our team since it was so I'll planned or well not planned! So we went home and waited for game time and I took a much needed nap. Mark got home & we headed to the game with his brother and his wife and my mom and step dad. I was so excited! Which was quickly deflated as well because they hardly played Ty! And they sent him out onto the field twice only to send him back out and I being his mom could tell he was beyond upset so I was upset too. As the game went on he got to play s little and the time he was in he did great he ran the fastest I've seen him run and tried his little heart out! His team lost :( but he kept a good attitude about he whole thing which made me really proud of him:). Kylie did really good cheering. She got mad because we weren't giving her enuf attention a couple times but she got over it and cheered better than she has before:) it was great!

We headed for Denny's~ one of Ty's fav places~ he says they have the best eggs!(I've been trying to perfect MY eggs to look like theirs lol he still says no mom they don't look like that!) we ate n left got home after 8 and I still had to run the last 5 miles...

This is where my eff it usually comes in to play but I got out the stuff I ordered for my relay~ reflective vest, blinky light, water bottle, and headlamp -put it all on after i figured it out-felt ridiculous with that headlight lol so I didn't wear it but after I got out in the darkness I wished I'd had it that's for sure! Had to use the handy dandy flashlight on my phone a couple times because it was so dang dark I was afraid I'd twist my ankle or something since I couldn't see where I was running. Got it done-awesome! I'm so glad I didn't say screw it! So then Sunday is supposed to be a rest day but the day after I do this split long run I like to run that morning to simulate the relay I'll be running so I headed back out Sunday bout 1, after making breakfast, going to the store,the donut shop(not for me), doing laundry- I finally got out in the beating sun to do another 5 miles~ got it done and it felt great that I didn't cut short or not do these runs! Having a team depending on my running is just the fuel I need for my runnin fire! Going to have to sign up for something else after this to keep going. I feel like I'm getting somewhere like I'm a real live runner and I love love love it:)

Bob Harper's lentil soup must try

Bob Harper's Savory Lentil Soup

Note: If you prep the chopped veggies ahead of time, this is a super quick meal to make!

1/4 c dried lentils
olive oil spray
1/4 c chopped carrot
2 tablespoons chopped celery
2 tablespoons chopped onion
1 garlic clove, minced
1 bay leaf
1/2 tsp dried thyme
1/2 tablespoon tomato paste
1/2 c cubed peeled sweet potato
1 and 1/2 cups low sodium chicken broth
dash of salt and freshly ground pepper
(optional) 1/2 tablespoon parsley,1/2 tablespoon grated Parmesan cheese

Directions:
1. Rinse and drain lentils, set aside. Coat medium pot with olive oil spray.
2. Add carrot, onion, celery, garlic to pot and saute for 5 minutes.
3. Add bay leaf, thyme, tomato paste and stir for 1 minute.
4. Add lentils and sweet potato, stir 1 minute.
5. Add broth and bring to boil; reduce the heat and cover and simmer 15 to 20 minutes or until veggies and lentils are tender. Stir occasionally.
6. Season with salt and pepper to taste. Serve hot with sprinkling of parsley and parmesan (also good without).

Yesterday's "run"

I had THE suckiest run ever today! I should have run at 5am and got it done while it was cooler but I didn't pry my ass out of bed so that left after work running because lunch run last week was scary in this hood.... I got off at 5 went home to change and walked over to Ty's football practice(bout half a mile I'm guessin) sat and watched him a while then decided I'd go on and do my run and meet them back at home to cook dinner. I set off walked to warm up 5 minutes then started my run. Ran up the road with no shoulder where I swear people were seeing how close they could get to running me over! Won't run this route again. Didn't bring water-dumbass move because I go into fantasizing about water and keep thinking about it and telling myself oh hell ill just go up and ask the next person I see if I can get a drink out of their hose! Then I look for a hose on EVERY HOUSE I PASS! Lol it turned into feeling like I had been abandoned in the desert-u know like u see on cartoons?!? Lol so my running suffered, badly! I really hate when I have that type of run! I am very ready for cooler weather. It's supposed to be ten whole degrees cooler on Saturday which is absolutely awesome because Ty and Kylie's football game at the redone high school stadium is Saturday and it's also my day to run a split 11 miles :) so excited about both!!

Less than 5 weeks til
Relay time! I borrowed this picture below from a Facebook friend and i think I may put it on a shirt for the race lol because forward definitely describes my PACE!

Have a great and healthy day!

Is it bedtime yet?

I'm so very ready to say goodnight! I got up at about 630. Ran 6.something miles, fixed breakfast, mowed front yard(mark took over and finished :) took 4 kids to the Waterpark and I'm pooped! And I still need to run another 5 miles....Uggggg!! I think I may have sat in some glue cuz I can't pry my ass out of this seat... Lol no here I go....

Weigh in day...

First pic is 6 weeks ago next is today :) I joined a 6 week Facebook challenge where my goal was to exercise at least 5 x per week which I smashed :) and lose 12 pounds which I was 0.8 shy of! I'm ok with that- I worked hard! Couple less indulgences and I'd have been there but hind sight it's 20/20 and it sucks lol!

Today might be my last lunch run.... Even with my mace running in the hood is nerve wracking for sure! I WAS feeling confident and ok since I had my mace but today I changed my mind... I ran past these two very seedy individuals that stared and made me very uncomfortable....I think I could fight off one and spray his eyes out but two....mmm I doubt it.... I just don't want to be a statistic so I guess it'll b back to the treadmill at 5 am instead :) I feel like such a weenie saying that but I am a big chicken! On a different note about that run-WOW IM SO DONE WITH 100degree days! Dang was it hot n humid! I was red as a tomato!

Having spaghetti squash and rotel for supper so good :). Finally got some more Jay Robb's strawberry protein powder so I will have my banana split protein shake for dessert and I am so looking forward to it!

The kids both took their lunch the first time for Kylie and oh my..... First off Ty took a peanut butter sandwich with crust cut off, a cup thing of nutter butter cookies, a banana,& a little bag of pretzels.... What did he eat? The cup of nutter butters! That's it! Said I wasn't hungry mom!! Kylie took a bologna and cheese sandwich no crust, a little bowl of strawberries, a banana, a blueberry muffin and a water.... The strawberries "just came open" which translates to Kylie opened them to eat a couple and didn't close the bowl all the way. So her entire bag was full of squished strawberries as she did not mention it to anyone lol! She ate the sandwich and half the banana and the muffin.... Put the other half of the banana in the sandwich box mmmmmmGROSS! Lol it was mushed too and slimy gross! I think they'll just buy lunch hahaha

I stumbled upon this blog today-can't recall the name but she's popped into my mind today quite a bit. She's a runner too and her mother ran and was out training one day and passed away on the track! I feel so lucky to be healthy and feel like I have the fight to get where I want to be and do the things I want and need to do! My dad needs a heart transplant and I think of him a whole lot on runs. That post, you've prolly seen it on pinterest, that says I run because someday I might not be able to, I run for those who can't-that's me :) I'm slow but I'm doing it!

Sittin here watching undercover boss-I love the idea behind this show but it just seems so freaking scripted!

Hopefully will get to the farmers market tomorrow before they close! Can't wait to check out what they got! They have yoga! I would really like to do that but I bettin my kids would not let that happen- not peacefully anyway hahaha. I signed up for a virtual race for this weekend it's a 5miler so I gotta crank that out sometime! And I think I'll take the kids to the library. I need some motivation so I think I'll borrow some running books! Have a great and safe weekend! Until next time....

MicroCinfulApples

So I bought this big bag of apples at SAMs and they are not my kind of apples. I usually buy gala apples I like them kinda soft not break your teeth crunchy and so if course these new ones are break your teeth crunchy.... So I cut it up sat here and thought hmmmm cinnamon apples sound so good! We have a little oven thing here at work but I don't have a pan or foil so that was out. So I thought wonder if it'll work in the microwave..... So I thru them in my bowl sprinkled with granular Splenda and cinnamon mixed together and sprayed with no cal wanna be butter and microwaved it for 2.5 minutes yum!!!! So now I totally feel like I had apple pie for my pre lunch run fuel---so good! 4miles on my lunch agenda:)

My babies had great first days of school :) Kylie says she's gettin so grown up now lol (my words) sniff sniff...

I read a Facebook post by a teammate, on the relay, that has me a little worried. He was commenting on another teammates post about a 3 mile run in 30 minutes (wish i was at 10 minute miles) on an injured knee, saying that that's a good pace for a beginner or a seasoned runner and that hopefully all of our team can keep that pace...... Uhhhhhhh I'm struggling at 11 minute miles! I do think running is a lot of mental struggles not just physical and I'm
Trying really hard to get faster and tell myself i can instead of i cant but it sure felt deflating to read those words:(
The more I think about it the more it sort of irritates me really! Hope pray this doesn't turn into something I will regret doing because I'm really looking forward to it! I'm just going to put it out of my mind. We all open mouth insert foot hopefully he's not an arrogant ass like it sounded....;)

Turkey sausage red potato onion bell pepper skillet for supper :). And laundry is filling my evening- why oh why can't there be a laundry fairy?

Forgot the pics

From the riverside run sunday :) here they are...... That first one is the Jacobs ladder! That is one tuff ladder!

Meatless Monday

So yesterday,I realized at 9pm, that I had not eaten meat all day.... None! Showed on the scale this morning too! This was not on purpose I was just trying new veggies and new salad and just didn't have meat. This is a strange thing for me because for one ive read and fallen into carbs are BAD THEME and also because I have pushed protein protein protein since I had my surgery, because that's what they tell u to do so that u don't lose muscle mass as you lose your weight. Anyway I did not feel deprived I was actually quite satisfied at each meal yesterday. For breakfast I had my usu protein shake and a western English muffin sprayed with no cal "butter" topped with granular Splenda mixed with cinnamon and toasted in the oven YUM- reminds me of the cinnamon toast my
Mom used to make me when I was little:). For lunch spinach salad with strawberries and slivered almonds and lite raspberry vinagarette yum and a sandwich thin with baby bel sliced and toasted with grape tomato halves & spinach. Dinner spaghetti squash (first time to try) with spaghetti sauce and Parmesan so good and filling and another spinach almond strawberry salad. And a lighter version watergate salad from undressed skeleton in a ice. CReam cone so good. See.... No meat.... Crazy to me! Lol

This wonderful coworker of mine brought CHOCOLATE CHEESECAKE today.... I cut an entirely too huge a piece..... So I will eat half take half to mark and share the chocolate wealth. :) can't wait to taste it!

Tomorrow is the first day of school for my little darlings! So exciting! Ty is in 3rd grade and Kylie is starting kindergarten sniffff! Getting too old!

Saturday we had our first football game they played and cheered their little hearts out I was a proud mom!
Skipped my long run day because I didn't want to drag out of bed Saturday morning at 5 to do the 6 miles on the treadmill. So I did it Sunday with the plan to run by the river.... Kinda a shady area as in trees and as in not so safe sometimes but I've always wanted to run there so I took my handy dandy mace and headed out! Got out too late.... Life with a family lol I have decided that I will HAVE. To get out the door before anyone else opens their eyes so that I don't have hot ass runs! Started my run nearly noon- too freaking hot! And I felt it! First 2 miles were great. Then I could feel myself fizzling out. Walked 20 seconds here and there. I've got to get a hydration belt thingy because I left all my water in the car didn't want to carry it... It would have helped. Got to one point and saw some shady ass looking folks pacing around acting like they were caught so I turned around and went back the other direction. Ended up climbing "Jacobs ladder" which is an incredibly hard stairway straight up! It was a challenge but I did it :) after 6 miles! Went home changed did laundry threw the football with Ty watched a touch of tv- I love snapped lol don't them bitches know u can't get away with it?! .....And went back out for my other 4 miles after the 49ers pulled out a win- that makes a happy home ya know! These 4 miles rocked! I was tired but ran the entirety of it! Weather was nice- cool for Texas kinda overcast and much cooler than my noon run! Got it done woohoo! So that was supposed to be Saturdays training and Sunday was supposed to b a rest day so I contemplated taking Monday for a rest but didn't..... Ran 4 miles treadmill at 5 am it was a suckish run wasn't feelin it....slow.... Got it done tho! And thought ok I gotta step it up that's what the dang relay's gonna be like! Except without sleep in my bed lol! 38 days until
My relay by the way :) still can't wait! I know it'll be hard but I can do it I CAN I WILL! I MUST! Had couple too many people tell me I couldn't so WATCH ME SUCKAS! Don't people ever learn that if u tell me I can't do it I will have to show u up?!!

Well it's lunch time so I'm going to go have my spaghetti squash with rotel and Parmesan (already ate my dessert- that chocolate cheesecake was the best I've ever tasted!) hope y'all have a grrrrrreat day!

I did it!

I ran three consecutive miles under 12 minute mile paces... I think it was actually 4, but I walk to warm up and cool down so those miles per hour are not just running calculations but who's counting.....oh ME!! I am very excited because I have been working towards getting faster and wondering if I was just destined to b a 12 minute miler no matter what.....but Im not.... A CAN DO THIS! I AM Doing this.

Tomorrows training is 5 miles am 6 miles pm..... Whew wee I'm ready:) I think..... In the middle we have football game and maybe library or swim park... We'll see.

Weekly weigh in picture below as well.... Gained 0.4..... Meh I'm ok I think I been over compensating on my eats with the "hey I RAN today so I can eat this n that".....Not bad stuff just more stuff.... So no loss. Next week got u in my pocket u will go down! Trying to concentrate on snacking and keeping it to a minimum because looking at my fitness pal.... I snack way too much! Fruit mostly but still when snack sections adding up to over 350 calories it's time to nix the snacks! My worst time of day is right when I get home.... I just want to eat the house and everything crunchy I can find! Have u ever noticed that like all things crunchy are full of carbs! I ordered from nature box... Which I thought I might never get but it came... And man there's some little crackers in there arhat are so good and crunchy(oh I just thought of something they'd be a great substitute for croutons on a salad!) and like 35 calories and they're only 2 carbs or something really low! I was amazed! Can't wait til they make it where you can order what u like in the box! The almonds that came in the box are out of this world! Maui onion crunch almonds they are so good!

Off to run stairs and do my 100 pushups :) have a great weekend!

Hilly run

Did my run at lunch again today. Woohoo to gettin all gross at lunch time! Lol. Thank the big man for deodorant hahaha! Anyway went pretty well it's so crazy to me how runs go..... Or here's how mine goes.... I really don't want to do this.... Excuse number 1-1000 pop in to head..... Fight with self..... No just get it done..... No I really could do it later.... No u don't have time just do it.... Get dressed for it..... Still making excuses not to..... Walk out the door.... Still dreading it..... Walk to warm up a little.... Still want to turn back and go in.... Start running..... Get into music still not so into it and its kinda uncomfortable starting up..... Sore from yesterday...... Half mile DONE...... Musics jammin...... Feeling better starting to really sweat..... All down hill from there..... Peaks hard half mile from done..... Push thru..... It's like giving birth.....OH THANK YOU LORD IT'S DONE! And I'm so glad I did it! Runners high everything is lovely woohoo! Amaze myself once again that I really just did that!

Lookin at my stats.....My "pace" is all over the place! I don't know how to stay in that same pace place... I just go.... Still learning about all this runnin stuff but feeling good about it!

Did my 100 push ups yesterday fixin to get them done for today too:)

Eating is going way better today than it was yesterday! I felt like I might eat the house yesterday!

Finally got my nature box yesterday! I like crunchy stuff and there are some really good little oriental cracker snacks in there that are only 35 calories! I was amazed :)

Played soccer,at Ty's football practice, yesterday with Kylie..... Think it might be her sport she can really kick and master that ball.... Will sign her up after cheer is done :) first football game Saturday! Can't wait! Wish I understood the game a little more maybe I will after he plays a few seasons.... We'll see-mark has tried and tried to explain it to me but I guess I just don't get it! maybe just maybe it'll make the difference that Ty is PLAYING:)

See ya on the flip side unless something way too interesting happens between now and then cheers to running👍

Me again :)

I did it! And I'm so glad I did. I did pretty good if I say do myself to!

Training program.....scared

So today is track day (or aka speed work day) and this intimidates me for some reason. I guess it is because I am
Scared to push myself?.!?! I don't really know! But it scares me which pretty much sucks cuz it makes me not want to do it period. So I sit and try and make up my bajillion excuses... One of my things I say to myself is NO EXCUSES! Excuses are quite simply useless in progress! In my opinion anyway an excuse isn't gonna make it go away any of it.... The fat... the pounds ....the run..... Ok thanks fit reading I am going to do this run at lunch like I planned so I can be at football practice for my son.... NO EXCUSES! I need the speed I need this workout there is reason for it!

Dam

First off I DID MY 100 pushups yesterday.... Feeling them babies today :) hoping I can do real man pushups by the end of this 30 days! I also ran 8 miles yesterday....3.1 at 5am on the treadmill and 5 on the dam close to work. Right after work... Which I was unprepared for so I ran in my scrubs! Got some looks but oh well had the time and with two kidos you have to do it when you can,so I did! Heres me on the dam in my scrubs in the sprinkling rain... Sweatin it up! Planning on running at lunch today,but I thought ahead and brought running attire!

I feel so hungry lately it's all I can do not to eat! I'm eating good foods....just want to eat them all damn day! Doing this training for my relay I think is making me hungrier, but I think I give myself too much leeway there.... I am still trying to LOSE so saying well, I did run a lot today,so I can eat that too or go over on calories is self sabotaging- something I am very very good at! The peanut butter jar in the house was emptied the other night so that's good. I tend to sit and think about peanut butter n jelly until
I must have a half of a sandwich.... Which wouldn't be a big deal BUT it's after supper and after a protein shake.... Which makes it too much. So it's all gone and I won't buy more for a while because it's a big temptation for me.

That's all for now.... Thanks for reading!

Pushups

I have little arm strength so for the next 30 days I am going to do 100 push ups everyday:) I'll keep u posted

Boy I look like my mom on this pic lol

100 flights climbed

I really love this fitbit! It really gets you moving! Set a new record for myself today climbed 100 flights of stairs at work today whew! Today is a cross training day in the training schedule so I will do an hour later or elliptical after football practice! Training has been going exceptionally well which I am extremely proud of! I ran 9 miles Saturday on the treadmill. In between jumping off due needing to referee my children! I think I have already gotten my paybacks! Saturday was my 10 year wedding anniversary. My husband had to work, so it was a good day to run 9 miles so that I could splurge a touch at dinner. We went to cotton patch..... Kids n all.... Very romantic I must say.... Ha ha! If only I'd brought candles because it was storming and the lights in the restaurant went out right when we got our food! So my son did not eat his food because he could not see it lol! I had meatloaf and green beans and broc n rice casserole it was delicious!

Here's my last Friday weigh in! Trying to get under 150 that was my ultimate goal going into this and this is the closest I've gotten..... So exciting! I WANT that under 150 by my relay race time oct 5th..... Trying hard so I think I'll smash it.... I hope :) whelp it's elliptical time see y'all next time :) thanks for reading

FOOD POLICE

    Seems like when people find out you've had gastric bypass surgery they instantly think they should probably do their duty to watch what you eat for you! LOL! Thanks a bunch but I got it,   now,
  finally! lol maybe not 100% of the time, but mostly I'm good!  Sometimes im not so good on the food Richter scale but its ok! I AM OK if i eat something not so great- I will likely not blow up instantly to 273! It would most likely take a lot of wrong choices for that to happen and so I try not to make those choices very often...... Get my drift? No? ok let me tell ya flat out then.... please don't notice,comment, mumble under your breath, wide eye, eye brow raise my food choices... you pick your food, nose, and butt and I will pick mine KKKAAYYY?? k :) If only I could tell some people this it'd be so cool! lol I mostly just laugh it off but its sure hard sometimes.

Went to visit with one of my very most favoritest family members last weekend... my Granny! I love her and I just love going to the town she lives in.  Wonderful memories going there all my life.  We go feed the ducks at the river, let the kids swim, take her to walmart, visit, take her out to eat, she is in a nursing home so outings are great fun. She is such an awesome lady!
  On our way home(bout a 3 1/2 hour drive) we stopped by a roadside farmers market.... mmmm.... you should have smelled this place!! Fresh baked zucchini bread! It was so good I cant even tell you! So I most likely could have used policing this particular day because not counting the 2 pieces i took to my mom and step dad I ate the entire loaf when we got home!! WHAAA! Yes I confess I did(but it had zucchini in it tho!) and it was good and I got right back on track.  i am still not 273 whew! they also had homemade ice cream! peach! Kylie said she must have some, she is just like me!!  but then she changed her mind and gave it to me! it was so good too!!! I also got little tomatoes, zucchini, squash, red potatoes and a red onion mmmmm see i bought some healthy stuff too lol!

Met one of my teammates for the capital to coast relay yesterday after work for a run and the dam here in town.  It was an awesome run! The dam is about 2.5 miles across. We are going to have so much fun on this race I seriously cannot wait! We have 12 people now too which is so elating! I came to find out some teams did not finish the race last year.... scared me a little! ok a lot!  I hope we finish! I want to finish! I think I may be pissed if we don't and I don't want to disappoint myself!  I have been giving everything to the training and I want to do well!  not first or anything.. but finishing for sure! The team doesn't seem like they'd give up tho which is great!  Stephanie was great to talk to! I felt very accomplished after our 100 + degree run across the dam! and hot and stankyyy- but thats how runners role....lol

So I'm loving this fit bit! So challenging! if your competitive in any since of the word this little baby will keep you moving... unless your blogging... which i guess I could walk in place as i type... shit no I cant I cant type period lol!! excuse My poor typing skills please.  Anyho fitbit rocks makes you want to beat yesterdays steps and stairs climbed and calories burned too! well worth the cash!(disclaimer- cuz heck everything needs a disclaimer right- if you buy it and don't like it sorry bout that but.... oh hell i forgot what i was gonna say)

ok i dunno anything else I guess......see ya later gater

Friday fitday

Ran a great 5 miles this morning on the treadmill! Only walked at each mile to drink some water for about 10 seconds! I am sticking to my training plan for the capital to coast relay and I'm
So excited to do it! Checked my email and I'm
On a TEAM now too! It's a great day! I hope and pray this is the awesome experience that I hope for it to be!

Going to see granny this weekend:) love going there seeing her and going to feed the ducks making family memories with the kids!

So ready for the weekend 7 miles tomorrow rest day Sunday! Down 3.6 pounds since last Friday yeah! It works when u do what needs to be done:)

Have a productive and restful weekend if that makes any since at All:)

On the right track..... Just don't derail!!

I've been sticking to my plan! I'm extremely excited about it. I've run the mileage my training plan says to run for the relay and food/calories have been on point.... Even below couple times! That never happens with me because 1 I don't have to b hungry to eat something I'm working on 2 if I "earn" some extra calories I'm
Spending them babies lol I've never really been much of a saver.... Something else to work on! Helping me to reach these goals is this handy dandy gadget I got its a Fitbit. Basicly a pedometer on steroids:) it tells you your steps, stairs in flights climbed, calories burned(which is what is on this pic at 4:28 I've burned 1682 calories already done 26 flights of stairs and ran 2 miles walked 1.5) oh and total mileage for your steps. You sync it and it has all these graphs ect to show you your activity level through out the day. It also tracks how well you sleep. Very handy and easy and last but not least MOTIVATING! Those 26 flights of stairs would not have crossed my mind without this!

I had a patient today tell me I was tiny! Lol I dunno it just strikes me as funny to hear someone refer to ME as tiny. I still have a 272 pound mindset... I still think I need more room to maneuver than I do. I buy bigger clothes than I need. I hope at some point I will KNOW I'm smaller. It's very strange to still see a fat person in the mirror. I don't know why I should be seeing my new and improved self by now it seems like but I guess I just focus on the flaws, which everyone has I guess. We are our worst critic that is for sure!

Ran 2 miles this morning running another 2 this evening. On the dinner menu: calzone with turkey sausage onion yellow and green bell peppers and little mozzarella wrap up in refrigerated pizza crust(I got the whole grain artesian to try this time) bake til golden YUMMILICIOUS!!

Ty had his first full pad helmet mouth gaurd tackle football practice yesterday evening! So proud of him he tackled like a champ! Kylie will be cheering for his team. Cannot wait its so exciting and Ty is super excited he puts on those pads and helmet constantly I love when they get passionate about something. Here he is dressed out!

Have a great evening and get movin!

relay race dun dun dun....

So, I have decided to copy off of Katie from Runs for cookies blog and run in a relay race. Its motivation like nothin else to know your a part of a team and you better train and you better try HARD! So I started searching and found one! I'm so excited about it! I'm trying to recruit a great friend Leslie, we shall see:) The race is called capital to coast. It starts in Austin and goes down to Corpus Christi. The only thing that makes me apprehensive is that these runners are faster than my 12 minute pace so I must step it up.  I guess one of them could be as slow as I am and the others just made up for their time but I don't want that to be me, so I will train hard and do this like a pro! Ever done a relay? DO share with me your experience?

In other news down 3.4 pounds since last Friday which is always good.  Moving closer still to that 150! 158.2 to be exact- in the 150's hmm  lowest I've been since surgery! and since prolly 3rd grade....

I really need to get a grip on feeding the rest of my family crap. My kids eat too much fast food. Its just because its convenient but I have got to change this its not healthy or good for them and I'm supposed to be showing them how to eat good food and be healthy and feeding them french fries is not doing that at all! Mark wants to eat better but doesn't like fruit and not many vegetables either so it makes it a little hard to tell him what to have. He has a little bit of gut he wants to get rid of, but has never had to or had the desire to eat healthy so he doesn't really have any idea what is healthy and whats not. You know like those people that think salad, ANY salad, is good for you even slathered in ranch so thick you could choke or covered in cheese and croutons? So, it made me kinda irritated when he said well I'm trying to watch what I eat but you haven't told me what I can/should eat- so he just hadn't eaten much of anything for like 2 days! seriously?  I started thinking you know how skinny I should be with all the damn diet KNOWLEDGE I have acquired in my 36 years of diets?!?! pretty damn skinny! So I guess I need to share my knowledge with him but for a split second I thought GFGI as my brother says lol...... Go Fucking Google IT! bahahahahahah yea I'm a little mean on occasion. Im sure when he tries he'll lose that 10 pound in like 2 days!  

So someone comment dang lemme know your reading lol have a great and healthy weekend!

binge eating

I have had gastric bypass surgery, so that should have fixed all my problems, right? Since I took the "easy" way out? NO!! Its not easy I still struggle, I still fight tooth and nail to keep this bastard weight off everyday! Today I have given in to my binge style which I hate!  I bought a package of dark mint girredeli chocolates with the intent of control.... Which I have done well with I have had one in 4 days that is huge for me! But today Im bord, stress over usual stresses and so they are calling my name from the drawer Liiiiisssssaaaaa......Liiiisssssaaaaaa....Lisaaaaaaaaaaa.... do you hear it too or is it just me?  Anyway the little bastards have unwrapped themselves and are now in my stomach..... at least 6-7 of them I think... I have "one mored" my way to that many.  Now I feel ridiculous and yuck!  I got up at 6 am and ran for 38 minutes and just screwed it all up by eating candy because I let my fuck it mantra take over! Ive got to get a grip. I wish I knew why it would even cross my mind to eat that much candy.  I have always pushed it to the limit in everything I eat to excess that is how I got to 272 pounds at my highest.  I drank to total ridiculousness. Seriously I give everything my ALL! Eat til your miserable and get shitfaced where you cant walk and make the worst possible decisions ever! Got the alchol mostly under control now if I could control my food itd be grand! I want so badly to get to 150(or below) but I constantly get in my own way! Ive lost a few more pounds so I guess im getting scared that I might actually reach my Goal? That just makes no since! I weigh myself constantly but was out of a scale for a couple weeks and actually lost weight because I think I give myself the green light on more food if I weigh a couple pounds less instead of thinking ok good I go eat like Ive never eaten before like I unconciously trying to sabotage myself...I dunno I know logically that doesnt make a drop of since but I do it im just putting it here so I can read it later and maybe try to understand it.

if it tastes good spit it out

So I read the other day about chia seeds, so I went n got some.  They are little black seeds. I put them in my taco casserole for lunch the day I bought them, because the article said they don't really alter taste they do expand and so makes you feel fuller. I was a little apprehensive to put them in in case I wasn't impressed since I used my lunch time to go get them. But much to my surprise they didn't taste funny and weren't crunchy in my food like I was afraid they would be. and they do help you feel fuller. Or they did me anyway.  They have alot of protein and fiber so plus and plus.... I'm sold.  Later that evening I put them in my protein shake. The article said they would thicken a shake. I guess it did thicken it but I did notice a taste I didn't care for has to be the seeds because it was the only difference in the shake. So in food its fine in shake blach! Only aversion is it kinda looks like little black bugs in my oatmeal... not so appetising! Any who that got me thinking why cant  these healthy "super foods" look more I dunno YUMMY?!?!? lol  

I have to pat myself on the back here...I have gotten up and run a 5 k on my tready most days of the week for 2 weeks now!!  It really feels good to get workouts knocked out before anyones even up! Miss bootcamp soreness tho maybe I will go tonight.

midnight 5k friday night Hopefully I will make it staying up that late haha

Rest days smesh days

Have worked out everyday this week,so I know I should take a rest day buuuuuut it is so very hard for me to do that because I like to eat! So I have my "zombie" voice in my head saying must. Burn. Calories!!!! I give in to Munchie boredom eating! I hate that I do this but I do, so there it is the reason I am stuck at this weight! I stock my fridge with healthy food and try so very hard but I just have got to get out of this eat it you can work it off later!

freakin fridayyyyyyy

Hmmmmm im not so good with titles.... More ramblings

Put off posting yesterday until I just forgot... Oopsie daisy:) Got up at 5am and ran my 5k very proud of accomplishing this 3daysin a row :) did not get up today---but that doesn't mean I stopped I will do either my5k or Bootcamp if I'm able to this afternoon. Been doing these 5k's on the treadmill... Some people call It the dread mill but I kinda like running on it myself and I :) so in Addition to my 5k yesterday I did 200 yes that two hundred sumo squats and one hundred and eighty three burpees whew that was alot of burpees! This was a Facebook challenge from a couple motivators I follow :) it worked I was motivated and I'm Now sore you know that wonderful soreness that tells you you moved good woohoo!! We went out to dinner at a Mexican restaurant we haven't been to in a while, actually we haven't been out to eat in a while period! It was so good, I had 2 grilled shrimp tacos and a few too many chips but it was planned and I felt good about it. After dinner Kylie(that's my little princess she's 5) went to 3 spoons because I won 8 oz yesterday of free frozen yogurt it was so good :) yea I put a little Reese's cups on there too but didn't go totally crazy or anything. That stuff sure does bloat my stomach tho:( I probably should have just had a protein shake but every now and then I want some I've cream! Football tryouts for my little man Saturday morning.... So exciting!! Praying he does well it hurts my heart when he's bummed if it doesn't go as good as he thinks it should! He's 8 his name it Ty. He's already pretty hard on himself which as his mother is very hard for me to watch. Kylie's going to be cheering for his team. I'm so excited for her to start too! She needs the activity. Trying to be more punctual these days. I read the other day if your not 5 minutes early your late.... That's good advice to follow! Dr Phil I heard say one time too that people that are late are just being selfish like their time is so much more valuable that anyone else's. I don't really look at it like that but it shows you how different other peoples opinions of lateness vary widely. I also have a close friend that hates lateness so I'm just trying to get over myself I guess and be ON TIME! I'm extremely proud that I haven't had any fuck it moments this week!!

Hmmmmm im not so good with titles.... More ramblings

Must. Break. Out. Of The. 12. Minute. mile!!!

Ran before work today! Love getting this done early and feeling accomplished before work just makes me feel good :) woohoo! Did 5k :) I read on runs for cookies about running for distance not time... Think this is a great idea for me because I feel it will push me to go faster so I can be done! Where when I have an hour workout embossed into my brain I feel like bummed if I don't get that whole hour in,so this distance thing I think will work really really well for me. Crazy how everything happens for a reason! Weighed in at 160.6 this morning hmmmmm. Fitness yesterday was 40 minutes (5k) on gym elliptical and 32 minutes in the bike at the gym. Haven't been to the gym in quite some time so it was a good change up. Kids want chick fil a for dinner so I'll have a side salad and 8pc nuggets and another 5k please lol hittin the treaddy again cyall

do i have a case of the mundays??

Welp its monday and all the crap I ate hit me on the scale this morning.  Weighed in @ 164.4 this morning, boooo.  Back to plan today had protein shake for breakfast, honeydew melon for a snack, chicken breast (grilled) and salad for lunch and 50 calorie dark chocolate (my oh so goodness for the day) and watermelon. 

Bootcamp @ 6pm this evening cant wait to see what kind for torture he has cut out for us today.  Might run a mile at least after boot camp as well.

Shakenbake pork chops for dinner with salad.

I set a goal of losing 12 lbs by 8/31/2012 surely I can do that just "got to keep on movin" isnt that a song? lol

Volunteering for TriWaco today

Volunteered with my little girl Kylie today to hand out water at the TriWaco triathlon. I want to DO This race one day! It rained on us enuf to get soaked but it was better than soaked in sweat. I'm sure the racers appreciated the rain. They brought donuts for us....dundundun... I ate two:( I've got to get a grip on my fuck it attitude. It's that other sentence that follows the one where I swear I'll exercise it off later that I guess makes it so easy for me to do! But it's now 546 and I haven't exercised as of yet.... Must. Get. Off. The. Ass!!!!! So I ate way too much yesterday at the party,booo. I made and sat by some very delicious dip, not smart! I tried to pry my ass away from the seat I was in but kept saying in my food addicted brain one more one more. One more'd myself to stuffed. Then I had a little of each dessert. Came home stuffed n miserable. Feeling the affects of all this sugar feel sluggish and blah. Need to run, going to go run NOW BEFORE I CHANGE MY MIND :) Goals for he week Bootcamp 3times run 5k other 2days Weighed in this morning @162:) woohoo

Party today

Parties I'd say are the worst for a person that has food issues. Ive read the oh eat before you go,stay away from all the food ideas in the world but I don't have to be hungry to eat or want to eat. So basicly if there's food I eat. The food choices are not exactly clean eating for today either.... Including the Kaluah cake I made. But I made a sugar free lighter desert that I can have And feel good about as well. Bought a new scale yesterday. Last one stopped working after being submerged in water.... No not by me lol! Anyway I was scared to get on it thinking omg haven't weighed in over a week! That's an odd thing for me because I'm One of those that if there is a scale I'm on it. So I weight in the morning and every single time I go to the bathroom. It's almost an unconscious thing. So anyway weighed in at 163 which I'm Rather happy about, 162 is my all time low since my surgery. I gained back up to 179 and said whoa whoa whoa this shits not happening! I'll be damned if people that said I'd gain it all back before I had surgery will be proven right! So I started running and running the stairs and anything I could to get my ass in motion. Now I'm back down here and want to go further down to 150 or below would be fantastic:) I wear a size 10 Which has always been my "if I could just be a size 10 I'd be happy" size--- you know the one? (actually I think I might have said 12 but hey goals change lol)

   my name is lisa. i am 3 years post gastric bypass surgery. my starting weight was 272 and i weigh today 164. I am married and have two beautiful children.  Pretty sure I struggle with a food addiction. other people I know don't obsess about food like i do, man that's hard to admit for some reason. for me its not an excuse just a truth that i need to embrace.

    just starting this blog to maybe be more accountable and it seems like the bandwagon i should be on:)  (as you've already noticed i did not take typing 101 we moved around alot so i got out of it somehow and so my typing skills are somewhat lacking and not up to par with my mother who could out type anyone i know lol.)
   Anyway i struggle with keeping this weight off on a daily basis and feel like it might help me to write down this crap in my head. 
   Today I started off good as usual had my protein shake then a banana, which i have been craving lately. I have a bit of carbohydrate phobia so i am trying to get away from the "carbs are bad" train of thought because i have a hard time believing that a damn banana or oatmeal is bad for me!  And so i come into work and the guy in the lab brought donuts which i spotted right as i walked thru.....great!  So come into my area put up my things and start thinking about the donuts and how good they are ect ect yes basically obsessing about the damn things! I'm not addicted to cigarettes(anymore) or alcohol (anymore) just FOOD! So incomes "fuck it mode" and i go get a cake donut it was very tasty and instantly think why in the hell did i eat that and start calculating how much exercise i might would need to do to "get rid of those 300 or so calories."  not smart and i KNOW this but its what i do.  
   I go on about my day. For lunch i packed left overs of a very delicious dish i found @ bariatricfoodie.blogspot.com  its called taco casserole OH SO GOOD MY HUSBAND EVEN HAD SECONDS!  its very good and healthy :)  did i mention it was yummilicious?  So i heat and eat my lunch and head over to target.  Got the kids some things and then really wanted chocolate! i KNEW i would do this because i always want something sweet after i eat, mainly chocolate, so i should not have gone to target, but i did and ended up in the snack section and got some flips chocolate covered pretzels, ate half and threw the rest away(which was really hard to do- throwing away food is so very difficult for me especially if it tastes good) because if i didn't i know i would have ate the entire bag, which was supposedly 8 servings!  so i now am up to mmmm bout 750 calories that i need to burn by today's end.... great! that seems attainable and unattainable at the same time since i am locked in to taking the kids to the water park after work today and as much as i can sit here and say oh i can swim it off.  I know i will want to sit and relax and read my book while they play and slide and swim.... well see tho... I will try.  I need to flex my self control muscle alot more than i do, I know i can I just don't for what ever reason id like to blame it on i just don't!