Rest days smesh days

Have worked out everyday this week,so I know I should take a rest day buuuuuut it is so very hard for me to do that because I like to eat! So I have my "zombie" voice in my head saying must. Burn. Calories!!!! I give in to Munchie boredom eating! I hate that I do this but I do, so there it is the reason I am stuck at this weight! I stock my fridge with healthy food and try so very hard but I just have got to get out of this eat it you can work it off later!

freakin fridayyyyyyy

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Put off posting yesterday until I just forgot... Oopsie daisy:) Got up at 5am and ran my 5k very proud of accomplishing this 3daysin a row :) did not get up today---but that doesn't mean I stopped I will do either my5k or Bootcamp if I'm able to this afternoon. Been doing these 5k's on the treadmill... Some people call It the dread mill but I kinda like running on it myself and I :) so in Addition to my 5k yesterday I did 200 yes that two hundred sumo squats and one hundred and eighty three burpees whew that was alot of burpees! This was a Facebook challenge from a couple motivators I follow :) it worked I was motivated and I'm Now sore you know that wonderful soreness that tells you you moved good woohoo!! We went out to dinner at a Mexican restaurant we haven't been to in a while, actually we haven't been out to eat in a while period! It was so good, I had 2 grilled shrimp tacos and a few too many chips but it was planned and I felt good about it. After dinner Kylie(that's my little princess she's 5) went to 3 spoons because I won 8 oz yesterday of free frozen yogurt it was so good :) yea I put a little Reese's cups on there too but didn't go totally crazy or anything. That stuff sure does bloat my stomach tho:( I probably should have just had a protein shake but every now and then I want some I've cream! Football tryouts for my little man Saturday morning.... So exciting!! Praying he does well it hurts my heart when he's bummed if it doesn't go as good as he thinks it should! He's 8 his name it Ty. He's already pretty hard on himself which as his mother is very hard for me to watch. Kylie's going to be cheering for his team. I'm so excited for her to start too! She needs the activity. Trying to be more punctual these days. I read the other day if your not 5 minutes early your late.... That's good advice to follow! Dr Phil I heard say one time too that people that are late are just being selfish like their time is so much more valuable that anyone else's. I don't really look at it like that but it shows you how different other peoples opinions of lateness vary widely. I also have a close friend that hates lateness so I'm just trying to get over myself I guess and be ON TIME! I'm extremely proud that I haven't had any fuck it moments this week!!

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Must. Break. Out. Of The. 12. Minute. mile!!!

Ran before work today! Love getting this done early and feeling accomplished before work just makes me feel good :) woohoo! Did 5k :) I read on runs for cookies about running for distance not time... Think this is a great idea for me because I feel it will push me to go faster so I can be done! Where when I have an hour workout embossed into my brain I feel like bummed if I don't get that whole hour in,so this distance thing I think will work really really well for me. Crazy how everything happens for a reason! Weighed in at 160.6 this morning hmmmmm. Fitness yesterday was 40 minutes (5k) on gym elliptical and 32 minutes in the bike at the gym. Haven't been to the gym in quite some time so it was a good change up. Kids want chick fil a for dinner so I'll have a side salad and 8pc nuggets and another 5k please lol hittin the treaddy again cyall

do i have a case of the mundays??

Welp its monday and all the crap I ate hit me on the scale this morning.  Weighed in @ 164.4 this morning, boooo.  Back to plan today had protein shake for breakfast, honeydew melon for a snack, chicken breast (grilled) and salad for lunch and 50 calorie dark chocolate (my oh so goodness for the day) and watermelon. 

Bootcamp @ 6pm this evening cant wait to see what kind for torture he has cut out for us today.  Might run a mile at least after boot camp as well.

Shakenbake pork chops for dinner with salad.

I set a goal of losing 12 lbs by 8/31/2012 surely I can do that just "got to keep on movin" isnt that a song? lol

Volunteering for TriWaco today

Volunteered with my little girl Kylie today to hand out water at the TriWaco triathlon. I want to DO This race one day! It rained on us enuf to get soaked but it was better than soaked in sweat. I'm sure the racers appreciated the rain. They brought donuts for us....dundundun... I ate two:( I've got to get a grip on my fuck it attitude. It's that other sentence that follows the one where I swear I'll exercise it off later that I guess makes it so easy for me to do! But it's now 546 and I haven't exercised as of yet.... Must. Get. Off. The. Ass!!!!! So I ate way too much yesterday at the party,booo. I made and sat by some very delicious dip, not smart! I tried to pry my ass away from the seat I was in but kept saying in my food addicted brain one more one more. One more'd myself to stuffed. Then I had a little of each dessert. Came home stuffed n miserable. Feeling the affects of all this sugar feel sluggish and blah. Need to run, going to go run NOW BEFORE I CHANGE MY MIND :) Goals for he week Bootcamp 3times run 5k other 2days Weighed in this morning @162:) woohoo

Party today

Parties I'd say are the worst for a person that has food issues. Ive read the oh eat before you go,stay away from all the food ideas in the world but I don't have to be hungry to eat or want to eat. So basicly if there's food I eat. The food choices are not exactly clean eating for today either.... Including the Kaluah cake I made. But I made a sugar free lighter desert that I can have And feel good about as well. Bought a new scale yesterday. Last one stopped working after being submerged in water.... No not by me lol! Anyway I was scared to get on it thinking omg haven't weighed in over a week! That's an odd thing for me because I'm One of those that if there is a scale I'm on it. So I weight in the morning and every single time I go to the bathroom. It's almost an unconscious thing. So anyway weighed in at 163 which I'm Rather happy about, 162 is my all time low since my surgery. I gained back up to 179 and said whoa whoa whoa this shits not happening! I'll be damned if people that said I'd gain it all back before I had surgery will be proven right! So I started running and running the stairs and anything I could to get my ass in motion. Now I'm back down here and want to go further down to 150 or below would be fantastic:) I wear a size 10 Which has always been my "if I could just be a size 10 I'd be happy" size--- you know the one? (actually I think I might have said 12 but hey goals change lol)

   my name is lisa. i am 3 years post gastric bypass surgery. my starting weight was 272 and i weigh today 164. I am married and have two beautiful children.  Pretty sure I struggle with a food addiction. other people I know don't obsess about food like i do, man that's hard to admit for some reason. for me its not an excuse just a truth that i need to embrace.

    just starting this blog to maybe be more accountable and it seems like the bandwagon i should be on:)  (as you've already noticed i did not take typing 101 we moved around alot so i got out of it somehow and so my typing skills are somewhat lacking and not up to par with my mother who could out type anyone i know lol.)
   Anyway i struggle with keeping this weight off on a daily basis and feel like it might help me to write down this crap in my head. 
   Today I started off good as usual had my protein shake then a banana, which i have been craving lately. I have a bit of carbohydrate phobia so i am trying to get away from the "carbs are bad" train of thought because i have a hard time believing that a damn banana or oatmeal is bad for me!  And so i come into work and the guy in the lab brought donuts which i spotted right as i walked thru.....great!  So come into my area put up my things and start thinking about the donuts and how good they are ect ect yes basically obsessing about the damn things! I'm not addicted to cigarettes(anymore) or alcohol (anymore) just FOOD! So incomes "fuck it mode" and i go get a cake donut it was very tasty and instantly think why in the hell did i eat that and start calculating how much exercise i might would need to do to "get rid of those 300 or so calories."  not smart and i KNOW this but its what i do.  
   I go on about my day. For lunch i packed left overs of a very delicious dish i found @ bariatricfoodie.blogspot.com  its called taco casserole OH SO GOOD MY HUSBAND EVEN HAD SECONDS!  its very good and healthy :)  did i mention it was yummilicious?  So i heat and eat my lunch and head over to target.  Got the kids some things and then really wanted chocolate! i KNEW i would do this because i always want something sweet after i eat, mainly chocolate, so i should not have gone to target, but i did and ended up in the snack section and got some flips chocolate covered pretzels, ate half and threw the rest away(which was really hard to do- throwing away food is so very difficult for me especially if it tastes good) because if i didn't i know i would have ate the entire bag, which was supposedly 8 servings!  so i now am up to mmmm bout 750 calories that i need to burn by today's end.... great! that seems attainable and unattainable at the same time since i am locked in to taking the kids to the water park after work today and as much as i can sit here and say oh i can swim it off.  I know i will want to sit and relax and read my book while they play and slide and swim.... well see tho... I will try.  I need to flex my self control muscle alot more than i do, I know i can I just don't for what ever reason id like to blame it on i just don't!