Shoppings fun right?

Uh, no, hell no! Not so much!  So I'm shopping the other day for something to wear to this wedding I'm attending this weekend and I go into dress barn to look around.  I've had good luck there before so I thought I'd give it a shot.  I'm looking around and this sales lady's like "that's the plus section" I was like ok.... "So does that mean you don't think I should be over here?"  

Cuz ya know my heads not caught up ever- I weighed 272 pounds had gastric bypass ( you know the easy way out- yeah right!) got down to 182 started gaining. Went back up to almost 200 and put the breaks on. Started running.  Got to 153. Was excited! Crazy excited!! 

Then got pregnant! SURPRISE!!! (I used to think surprise babies were something that just wouldn't happen to me but uhhh) 

 So here I sit at 183.something and feel plus think plus and always have even at 153!  

This conversation stirred some crazy emotions in me. I realized I don't even know what size I wear! What?!?!! What is wrong with me! How could I not know that?! 

  It doesn't help that sizing is freaking ridiculous as a whole! I can wear from a 14 to an 18?  Which is plus! Not that I'm wanting to be there but I am. The sales lady was obese and so starts the oh great she prolly thinks I'm nuts saying this and how doses someone not know their size?

 But I don't and I'm surely not alone in this body image hell thing I'm in!  

 I didn't find anything there so I went to Maurice's. Love that store!  Tried on some xl and xxl things that were too big! That makes no since! Anyway yeah shopping is just knock your socks off awesome! 

Let me go find some shoes those always fit!!!😜 I wore this one

The wedding was beautiful and we had a great time! 💜

Well hello!

So a lot has happened since I last wrote a post like this 

Sweetest lil baby in Texas!!  If all kids were like this mr handsome everyone would have 19 kids😍! 4 months old already!!!!! 4 month shots yesterday meant fussy baby poor lil boy! 

On the weight front I weigh in at this now

Uggg not where I wanna be.... Or was.... I'll get there! I started the 24 day Advocare challenge yesterday to help me get focused.  And I've been doing a free weight training regimen from bodybuilding.com jamie easons 12 week schedule.  Makes it less intimidating to do weights for me knowing I have certain things to go in and do! Love it feeling strong!  Also been making sure my fit bit hits 5 miles per day.  Done days this is a piece a cake..... Mmmmm cake..... Oh and some days not so much, but I'm making it happen. I have a closet full of clothes I neeeeed to wear!! 😜 

Have a wedding to go to tommorrow trying to decide which if these to wear 

Or

This? 

Hope alls well for you! Have a fantabulous day!

ALMOST TIME!!!!

My Dr set my inducement for sept 6th!!  So ready 😊......I think..... Lol. This starting again with diapers and no sleep at my young age is a little nail biting.

  I can't wait to run again.... Have I mentioned that? Oh I did? Sorry😏 I just hope I actually GET to run. 

Three kids sounds like a hectic house!  I'm envisioning my little girl carrying the baby by his head to me while I'm in the shower and marks "watching" them lol😁. Hope that doesn't happen....

This lady in the cafeteria of the hospital I work at told me the other day "you've put on a lot.... How much u put on?  You can tell!"  I've gained about 45 pounds and I was so appreciative of her pointing this out to me that I really could have poked her in her eyeball with a fork!  Lol. It amazes me the things people say! 

Had my baby showers last weekend it was a lot of fun! Probably should have not had cake for breakfast lunch and dinner but.... I pretty much did! 

Can't wait to see this little face! 

Y'all have a great day!!

Goals

I've been thinking I should set a running goal to get me going ....post baby!  My goal is to place in my age group at a local 5k.  Mind you that's not looking that difficult BUT it will be like starting all over because I've cut back to walking only during this pregnancy.  I think this will help motivate me to actually DO the intervals/speed work which scare the begeezes outta me for some reason.  I just get the "I can't do that's" BAD  when even thinking about them.  Maybe this will kick me in gear:) 

I downloaded the Jillian michaels 30 day shred today and I think I'll try it out for the next 30 days.  Just like "ill start Monday" it feels wrong to start on the second but what the hell I'm gonna start on the second!:) it's so dang hot here an indoor exercise video sounds better to me than walking miles outside, so ill try it out :) 

Can't believe it's already almost July 4th seems like it was just Christmas!  

Hope your week is going good :) ill keep u posted on 30day shredding while 30 weeks pregnant!  Have you done this video?  What's your thoughts on intervals/speed work?  

Night out!!!

Met Holly Tucker last night at a Wade Bowen and Randy Rogers concert last night :))

Was a fun night out:). We never do that....ever! 

Randy Rogers 

Wade Bowen (is freaking HOT).  

So glad we went :))

Kids n weight

My little angel girl is 6. She's the sweetest thing since birthday cake and has momma's jeans.  Kids are mean and have called her names regarding her weight.  It makes me cry:(. Makes me want to say take me to them.... Belt in hand!  But any way I have got to show this girl how to eat be satisfied and move out of the kitchen...(not that I have this down pat myself).  She does not seem to get full.  If you've been here and have any tips please share.  Went to the store and bought fruits and veggies she likes and I'm going to make this a priority.  I owe it to her to show her good eating habits.

In other news I an currently at 28 weeks (29 tomorrow) of pregnancy. I've gained about 28 pounds.  It's scaring the beegeezes outta me.  I absolutely can NOT wait to run again! And can NOT wait to see this sweet Lil face!  We're naming him Caysen Wayne. Wayne was my dads middle name and my grandfathers name :)  

Thanks for reading:). Any tips on how to explain/put into action the whole calories in vs out to a 6 year old are welcome! Have a fantabulous day!!

That's Caysen's hand is that not awesome?!

 

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14weeks &4days.......

Left but who's counting right? Lol me me me!!  I'm trying to enjoy this pregnancy because fer real this time it will be my last :) and I am enjoying it.  The watching the scale go up up and away is difficult but I'm managing.  

Growing belly :) 

I have been missing running something fierce!  I had a very vivid dream that I ran a 20 mile run that was the most awesome run I've ever had:) of course it was I was dreaming it! But really I'm

Missing it badddd!! I got out and walked 3.5 miles and while in one neighborhood ran between mailboxes then walked repeated thru that subdivision. It was wonderful!  Go out two days later thinking ok I'm going to run one minute walk two...... My belly had other ideas! That HURT! So walking it was. On the bright side I'm

Glad I'm doing something for fitness but I seriously cannot wait to run again!  

Can't wait to see his little sweet face:) 

Did you run or workout while pregnant? Did it make your belly hurt?