My Shadow

Running the other day I couldn't help but notice how shapely and small I look or well my shadow looks. I still think I'm bigger than I am and I'm not sure how to grasp
It and heck it's been over 3 years! Maybe it'll sink in at some point:), but looking at my shadow made me smile.

I say things to people that don't know me and I get the reaction that you'd give that size two girl bitching about her weight while your sittin at size 22! It's a crazy thing to realize they are saying to themselves "oh shut up already!" Lol so I feel that obligation to explain that I used to be much larger than I am now- always to their amazement! You just never know where someone's been or what they've been thru.

I've been listening to the half size me podcasts while I run and I love them! She has touched on some things that totally resonate with me!

One that I listened to the other day was talking about toxic relationships and said this quote which I love and think is so true! "Your true friends will love and support you no matter how it affects THEM" I am trying to clean my toxic clock :) just can't/won't/don't need to waste another minute on these people.

Highly recommend this podcast!

Doing a one mile challenge per day (at least) now until jan1 (and beyond I hope) join me :)

We got a real tree this year and I'm so excited to decorate for Christmas! It's so fun for the kids.

My dads doing pretty well getting stronger in the rehab facility he's in. Thank you for the prayers they're working!

Have a great rest of the afternoon :) happy Sunday!

Blogging

I'm so fickle on this blogging thing....sorry. I always THINK of things to write but the get busy or forget what I was going to write about.

Yesterday I ran just over 5 miles(I don't like my mileage to be odd numbers) and then rushed to the y for spin class. Made it just in time! I was listening to the instructor and another member of the class talk about the lack of coverage for them when they need off ect and I think I may take the class to become a spin instructor:) I'm super excited about this!
Yesterday I stayed so busy with house work ect that I didn't eat much, strange for me but it showed on the scale this morning :)

I love this time if year! Can't wait for Thursday :) have a wonderful thanksgiving :)

Amp???

Someone enlighten me as to what amp
Means in the blog title? Thank you in advance;)

Wowweeee

I just made it all the way home without eating one fry from my family's food! (Yes I know I should not be feeding them this crappy food and I don't have an excuse or any justification-they asked I said ok.) but I didn't eat one which is extremely odd for me!!!! :))))

Squash

I'm so glad I've finally tried squash! This is butternut squash soup and I must say yummmmmm and like 180
Calories! WOWWIEEE! Lol I love spaghetti squash as well makes for some wonderful low cal lunches for the week!

Loving the YMCA classes for some workout inspiration :) and variation! I did the body shaping class today and oh man the burn.... I should be nice and sore:)

I have decided I don't really think weight watchers is the plan for me but before I nail down that decision I think I'll try the simply filling plan first. Have y'all tried it or do u just do points plus?

10 k on Saturday was a killer hill route! Time was one hour 11mimutes :) 11:30 pace going to try to work on some speed. Wasn't last but I need to push myself outside my comfy box. I realized while I was running this race that I plain don't push myself. I know this by the talk test-I was singing on my race- i shouldn't be able to sing while racing! So that's my goal to push it. And speaking of pushing it I wire these zebra compression socks at the race and at that last hill (1/4 mile from finish but it was steep) this girl was standing there with a bullhorn saying "no no no girl with the cool socks you may not walk up this hill sprint it in!!! Go go go!!" It was just the encouragement I needed and I sprinted it in :) the spectators just don't know how great they are!

Struggling

Whoa is me.... Ok I'm done :) this weight struggle really stinks sometimes! Ok a lot if the time!

I just feel like someone else takes over and that bitch says "screw it" "eat it" WAY too much! I hate it!

I hate that I do this stupid cycle constantly! Insanity - you've all read the definition on Pinterest and Facebook, I'm sure, in those funny card type pics that make us all laugh- doing the same damn thing over and over and expecting a different result. That's me I N S A N E!

I work my ass off working out only to out eat all the calories I've burned! Whine whine whine! Ugggg. Sorry for the whine just truly struggling right now. Sucks! But I will keep moving, keep trying, keep trying to move to a more positive, happy me!

Thanks for reading:)

Wednesday weigh in.....

So Friday when I signed up for weight watchers I was at 154:(. That sucks but I'm
Not giving up.... I won't sit here and make excuses. I ate too much along with sitting on my ass with my sore knee...I walked but I'm used to running so I think I got this welp I might as well eat, I can't exercise which is THE STUPIDEST attitude to get and I know it but hey I didn't get up there in weight doing the smartest things.

Ice and Ktape are helping this knee woohoo!! It just plain sucks when u get to where you CAN run and u WANT to run and even ENJOY it, but u can't cuz ur knee hurts! It's an ahhhh today that I feel like I can run! So ready! I've brought my clothes to run on my lunch everyday this week but haven't been out yet! Think ill be good to go this evening so ready!

In other news I have decided I want to do a triathlon. No idea where to start but I'm fixing to find out ;) I'm not a strong swimmer or even a swimmer but I was told I can backstroke, doggie paddle anything that'll get me there in the water just not drown so I'm gonna give it a triiii lol yea I'm a dork:). Have to look up how long I have to get my doggie paddle down before the triathlon here...and find a bike I think they might laugh at me if I do it on my beach cruiser type bike lol! If u know anything about this or have any tips I'm all ears ;)

Going to join the y here so I can train in the pool and try out some yoga and other Classes. Haven't done a yoga class before. I like to burn calories lots of them and looking up the calorie burn for a yoga class makes me think nah but I'm gonna try it anyway...... I Need stress relief.

Hope you are having a great day. Keep smiling and your attitude bright and your day will follow:). Toodles